Notes to move forward with

 Wow as I write this words down notes to move forward with, I think of how this phrase has been so important. When I was at my worst in 2021 that what I did was Journal writing, it became a ritual in looking at a list of what was wrong as well as a list of things I look forward to.

That I essentially came to the epiphany of what my book would look like which is subchapters within chapters, that I didn't want to write two extensively although I know that's what might not be well I needed something that represents who I am.

And I'm thinking of when I want the boat to accomplish I think about the things that I love, the things that helped and saved me, and to share my epiphanies as well as encourage others to do those things.

Openness and curiosity seems to be a main driving point and what education is for me, as well as continue with people as non-biased non-judgmental and no expectations.

Film is the essence of epiphany as you look at the etymology and what Epiphany means you can see how it relates to the movies.

I'm thinking of new rituals, I thought of ways I could reserve time for writing in 2026, I need a ritual to shape each poem and not just have the words generated, looking at desire versus need, and thinking of both can be accomplished at for mental health, is the even listing rituals and ritual making the subconscious way of looking at what we each wish to become?

Ca Conrad said time is never an issue because the ritual shows that we can always make time

So other rituals I would like is Friday night game time, Sunday night movie, restarting the sibling writing with jericho, I also do need to go through this blog and arrange the book chapters with subchapters

An example is the positive Trickster, where the subchapters would be each aspect, and then having reflection questions or poetic mode prompts

I need the ritual of going to the gym, and I need a ritual to go to Lawrence to find where the anecdote is within the poison

Movies where toxic masculinity takes place like fat camp, Mighty ducks, dodgeball, Bad News Bears with the girl on the team, and the coach is always toxic

In the book I also want a chapter about how to develop a ritual, like the Sunfire Leo example pulling in Elements which include writing if writing is healing, the somatic maybe as the tap into your own body through disorientation like see a Conrad

A reflecting on how belonging was such a big part of my positive experiences in Lawrence and then there is no one there to reach out to as the people I needed to run, the people I need to stay away from, and then those friends who sided, and then also people themselves sitting boundaries with me to not see me again currently

Jericho talked about the subtle gifts

What are the gifts I can include in my writing? Keep myself in check and not be a lecturer?

Memoir itself leads to new places, the image leading to what was not be there until you after the Memoir was written. And I know I need to write this Memoir in small bursts of information. I thought that Memoir isn't what you know but it's what you find in the writing.

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