Fears of Water

 swimming instructions

James bOnd movie song

this is the end

how going to texas, I discovered how a fear of writing can be confronted

through immersive love and play

 ocean and water park

Ennagram archetypes

 https://www.helpingwritersbecomeauthors.com/crafting-archetypal-arcs-using-enneagram-insights/amp/

Thou art that

 P 92 and 93

Joseph campbell

Ecritue feminine

 When I'm thinking of all the step stack posts in the sub stack followers they can be women. When I look at all of the books I'm buying poetry or Memoir they rent by women. Yes I tend to be sexist because I knew when I read that Helen Subaru that she was making sense even way back then. I want to steer clear of that masculine form of writing

Masculinity

Vision quest

 How it created something mystical

Romance of imagining 

Videos

A poet aims

A film maker

Poetry is not a Luxury

 Audre Lorde's essay needs to be the center of my writing

Maggie Smith's Dear Writer

Maureen Murdock's Myth and Memoir book

Soundtracks

 Nine Inch Nails in Topeka Kansas and moving into soundtracks and now for Tron Ares

Interview

 People like Joanna Gardner

Boyhood

 Protecting our sons

Homeschool joy

Film school

School of Rock

Boys of summer

 

 

At the Movies for a New Masculinity 

Whiplash examines toxic masculinity, esp those in power

Kings of Summer

A couple of missed chances when it comes to neurodivergency and queerness

First Cow

https://i-d.vice.com/en/article/qjkqqw/movies-about-masculinity

https://www.thejakartapost.com/life/2019/01/24/expressing-vulnerability-a-different-portrayal-of-masculinity-on-the-big-screen.html

 

Gen X

Yes it was ironic that the X in X-Men not just Xavier

But the unknown or uncanny

Finally the descendants.of the Vietnam era were seen

Naropa commencement

 I just sent the naropa commencement speech from this year. The message at the end shook me to the core, community doesn't mean to "ignore harm or avoid accountability" but it's also important to "not reduce people to the worst thing they've done or the hardest truth they haven't learned yet." 

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DJuzFMcSD0x/?igsh=OHY4a2t0ODJsenM4

Dodgeball

 Class

Disability 

Masculinity 

Documentaries

 I always ask for a paper receipt, a paper ticket

I love documenting things

Memory is difficult 

I don't remember a lot about my childhood or really a lot so the few photos I have are good in that way

Erotic films

 Stop right there. I k ow what you are thinking.

P 75 77 of febos, body work

My adhd makes me fiercely irrational when it comes to engaging with others

Chang9ng the narrative 

Fighting aga9nst sexual assault

28 days later, final scene, that he loses himself to being a savage

Not distinguish him from zombies

The right resp9nse to something just as irrational,  as damaging, as abusive

 

Ditching

 Maybe call this Ferris Bueller's Day Off, and then collage with different things. Like a creative nonfiction piece. Collage things about fast food, skipping, and school

Find that book where someone's talking about the movie from the '80s, it's an eighties book from the library

Watching Ferris Bueller's Day Off just before I started working at McDonald's

Ross gay talks about how he, too seldom missed school. He never skipped a day or basketball practice.

He said just before his father was diagnosed with liver cancer and he was ready to get to his job at Applebee's, Ross said oh man, blow it off. Let's go watch Hellboy.

You have no idea how bad I wish I could. That was the first time he said anything like that.

We have our duties and responsibilities, but we also have the fear of being fired and such systems. Even calling in to work at a restaurant you could get fired.

Skipping work in a corporate world, you have to call in and use one of your personal days.

You might get two weeks vacation off but one of those weeks have to be split up. Also they can't be back to back

I told my students, which I mean those students who would never miss a class, just plan for one day where you can miss a class. But I still hear of instructors saying they cannot miss a single class. The tyranny of this, the authoritarian horribleness, sorry if you're one of those professors who are reading this. I fully understand you want students engaged but we have to find ways to engage students through love and commitment. We have to tell students they can take one day off and go somewhere get out of town.

Sandra would do this, that she was just decide on an afternoon she was going to Kansas City instead of sleeping as she worked the night shift. I try to think of her when I do skipping.

Ferris looks right into the camera, right into the audience, and tells us this wisdom about life. He's encouraging us to enjoy a day by creating the best escape plans. There is no day we get to see Ferris in school. There is no day we get to see his work ethic except that he somehow convinces everyone on a float to do a dance coordinated song from the Beatles

Close-up shots

 How attention deepens when you become a poet, because attention is what poetry creates. The window to slow down, to notice things that one wouldn't notice. The movie screen does this too, at the director and cinematographer choose what we should pay attention to, whom we should focus on.

Maybe the conversation aren't dialogue, as a prompt

Character and Story Arcs

 in fiction writing class, I show students how one can draft what happens in a story, and if the character is up or down in their life

 I also ask students to experiment with their own, keeping in mind that resilience can be a theme in our lives

i have never had a student graph only below the line

I think of beau is afraid, he is never above the line 

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 cinema therapy, that the character arcs and situations reflect our own

 

opening night

 the comfort of nighttime

how even the feel for going to a film when it opens

it feels like it is gone

 

Lights cameras action

 Action movies tell us we have to take action.

The lights help us to see

We need the attention of cameras

And we can take action

ADHD paralysis is real

Redemptive violence

Superhero films

Nuance

Summer Blockbusters

 Summer was always a block for me. I became paralyzed. 

Blockbusters, named because of the lines.

Going to Naropa was the blockbuster I needed. 

prompt

write two months that are the best for you

write two months that are th eworst

 

freewrite about your sleections

write a memory for each month, even if "not accurate"

write a symbol for each moth

make a metaphor with my metaphor-making approach

 

Enjoy the Magic of the Movies

 B&B theaters

George?

What magic is

religious studies

why magic is that category of the unexplanable

poetry is the closest to representing as ambiguity helps in meaning

the reader takes part

just as they do in a magic act, they can;t know how the illusion is done or it takes the thrill away

the belief suspended

THE FOLLOWING PREVIEW HAS BEEN APPROVED FOR ALL AUDIENCES

 introduction 

layout

who is the audience?

 

Silence Your Cell Phones Now

 why people won't allow themselves to engage at the movies, they see as entertainment, something to do

some ADHD folks can't sit still

the way my ADHD works allows me the chance to focus in a way that isn't exhausting

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writing poetry, you write out of attentoin

silence

 

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silencing can also be harmful

the need for nuanced conversation

Trust Your Mind

Embracing Nuance in a World of Self-Silencing

by Jenara Nerenberg

 

 

book

 

Trust Your Mind

Embracing Nuance in a World of Self-Silencing

by Jenara Nerenberg

Supporting cast

 Have a lot of my life I played a supporting role in someone else's story. When I could become self-actualized then I could support others in their stories while being my own person. That it wasn't a negative correlation, I wasn't just a tag along.

We are writing to know we aren't alone, that we are asking people to join as well as we are asking to join

Two types of support

Healthy or unhealthy

On location

 How i scope out movie theaters and where films are made

Kansas films

Immersion writing

Diagetic sound

 The things that we can hear as a character in our own story, our internal dialogue, the negative cognitive messages

Intermission

 Etymologies

To withdraw,  to go back

Playing hooky

Ferris Buehler 

Screenplay

 We inherit many of the things we believe about ourselves from others, and if we aren't taught how to do our own speaking, our own writing, working out of character, we can feel trapped

" my personal definition of Oppression is being trapped in someone else's narrative with no power of authorship. This definition thrives in the ways that The Narrative of white supremacy has authored Blackness as dirty and delinquent, Indigenous as uncivil and cannibalistic, latinx as parasitic, in the list goes on and on."

Jamila Lyiscott

Black appetite. White food. Issues of race voice and Justice within and Beyond the classroom

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So the way that narratives play culturally, can also reflect the personal, that also reflect how we believe about ourselves. The negative cognitive messages that we believe about ourselves.

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Movies are the last playgrounds the poet said, and we get to engage with play on the screen. No wonder they call it screenplays developed from the play both performing as someone else and of having fun, the best way to learn

Method Acting

 About trickster survival

Other tricksters

Truman show

Masculinity

 

you become a character by believing you are that character

you connect with something from your personal life to enter that character

Women and mythology

 https://www.womenandmythology.com/?mc_cid=fa27d6711c&mc_eid=a044939049

Book

https://a.co/d/1UlQH1n

Cunematography

 How I have seen Topeka, how I've seen my life, how I've practiced to pay attention, how poems have helped me to pay attention, how I've started learning to love the Prairie, but how I still love where movie theaters are

Other film terms

 Audience, something similar to writing, in that question, who is your audience? It's why narrowing down focus on the subject is important, why the title of a book reflects that subject, and then why someone would be opening the book to find something about that subject. That people are reading the book I'm writing tells me I've already won them over in some way. But it's also the audience like in the movie theater, how can you win everyone over into how the engagement should be done?

Like I like mixed forms so it was perfect to have a mixed form in my memoir, but that won't win everyone over.

Editing, talk about the naropa approach, how poetry can be through generative practices, but also editing as in ADHD. People won't be self-editors for ableist views.

Movies and poets

 https://youtu.be/KgJiHpxe1Tg?si=LuOaWNxuJW0z9508

Back matter

 Include all of those academic definition things in the back of the book. The Memoir itself should be driven by the vulnerability and experiences while dipping into the needed Concepts. But if I show something like I did in Eureka springs, defining the trickster, it's going to turn the audience away. Can't rush huge leaps of Concepts unless someone is willing to engage, but we engaged on the deeper level with storytelling and metaphors. The experiences themselves help us engage with others because they are non-academic.

Good memoir advice

 On pages 129 and 1:30 in dear writer

How when discussing things about vulnerability and breaking the fourth wall intimacy, that the sharing has to also be deeply human. How to innovate push the envelope Trust oneself. How to enact waves of grief while making a sensitive leaps of memory in the narrative

Table of contents

 Part have me wants to develop the table of contents, looking at Deer writer by Maggie Smith, it's genius that she has the contents laid out with different aspects of creativity and then can have the subchapters do their work on how it applies to that.

I'd like to even try the different elements of film, like lighting, mesonsin, actors,

Another idea is that I could take the different aspects of the trickster. But I'm not as excited about that as thinking of taking different aspects of film to write about movies and poetry with. Ways to think about my life to. Definitely actors would include the trickster. It could also include persona.

Dear writer

 Maggie smith

A fragment from p42

"From a film not as much about plot as character"

Poems led me to community

Also, the metaphor of film is we each can be different people in a way each of us only can be

Art depends on the viewer to make meaning