inventory

 Note I hit the wrong button that made some of this wording Google searches. Please ignore such links! Drats

I feel at the time of taking inventory on what is written

 I realized I could have a "choose your own introduction"

 or they are the beginnings to sections

 I think this book will be an examination through the genres at least part of it will

REVISIONS: make sure traumatic things are in third-person, or write in the third person 

 What I see is that genres, I see the ritual of different seasons, I see using different elements of how a film comes together, and I see the things about my jobs as well as the Vietnam War

NOTE: none of the go-to's will end, it will be a cycle of choice

 NOTE: I want to stay a morning in my office typing up entries or discovering movie tickets from my journals >> let the entries be on their own

THE INTENTION IS NOT TO HURT OR BLAME ANYONE 

STAY ON THE TOPIC OF HEALING 

Note: it's about looking for the liminal where safety and belonging are, so change can happen so action can happen

Note: write this like you're writing to your dear friends, right at like you're writing it to Jericho

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SCHEDULE 

Sept 21: Work on finishing Movie magic, the outsider, and bad movies are good medicine

 

 

---: Mythic memoir making

--- genres, storytelling, and empathy, 

 --tress, using the books about trees, movies about trees

 --healer archetypes 

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Make the story about my being 34 and taking the giant leap of faith as the preface. Then it's followed by the introduction and who is the audience?)

Opening caveat / preface

Introduction: What saves your life?

Who is your audience?

 How to Watch a Movie (hint: you don't just watch a movie) 

entertainment vs engagement how to avoid distracitons

Pulling at the strings to create the memory web

 Loki Another introduction (lead into the trickster)

Safe spaces of Topeka circa 1980s

philosophical ramblings of a movie nerd

the magician

 

 

my life with two moms at the movies 

(Leads to)

DIY Age Approporiate Film School at Home and other lacks of judgment as a movie geek dad

Wounded healer

()leads into)

Autumnal Harvest Healing, Horror directors as wounded healer, At the movies for horror and healing

At the movies with adhd

 

***The projectionist

movies about movies

***Elvis or priscilla

crying, 

Eternal sunshine of spotless m8nd, see skip dine young 

embracing inner monsters to fight off monsters

(Leads to)

Horror empowerments

Minotaur motif 

 

 Bad Movies are Good Medicine

 

 

In the Truman Show

(Leads into)

The trickster

Troubles with masculinity  

 

the need to get away 

*** Constraints for the paradoxical ability to find the liminal between finite and endless

 

Summer--- WORKING ON, need to make notes on the films

Halloween, and other Things Autumnal

(Leads into)

Horror empowerments 

 Christmas, Winter, and other Rom Com beginnings (Valentines)

TX 200

Eulogy and Living a Full Life

Everything Everywhere All at Once

Joy and Play as a Frame

poetry at the movies

Movies that move me AKA drama

openness and curiousity

Divorces at the movies

**Gage 4 Theaters 

 

Where Outcasts Find Community 

(leads into)

role of myth, hero's journey and other journeys

(leads into)                     >>>>>                                              (or leads into)

Labyrinth work                                                               **        Monsters journey

(leads into)                                                                      **        (leads into)

Speaking out against domestic violence and SA            **           HORROR, queerness, and 

(leads into)                                                                       **           how I started opening up 

***Remember the Alamo Drafthouse                                   **           to non-self-judgement 

 

 

****EMDR is for Movie Lovers: A Testimony

 cinema therapy

the trickster

***Ferris Bueller's Day Off, my writing

(leads into) 

fast food

examining a year of time for self care out of the joy, facing the trauma, through love

***My fifty years at the Movies

Playing hooky

Superheroes for mental health

against sexual assault

 

Isolation or adhd lead to:

 Mental Rom-Coms

 

 

black cinema 

Kansas at the movies

(Leads to)

Wilderness as the past

 

Acting, imposter syndrome, and other ways to not be authoritarian 

Vietnam war

Napoleon Dynamite and other rituals of returning to school

 religion and film

the image / Constraints for the paradoxical ability to find the endless

The best popcorn

slam > poetry at the movies

FOR THE END OF THE BOOK:

some kind of conclusion for each of us but the longer narrative continues

** chapters that need final revision

 

Digital vs 35mm

Pop culture films reels

 https://www.instagram.com/shannonmancus?igsh=bndyajQ0dGk0ZXNj

Positive psychology

 https://gointothestory.blcklst.com/first-hand-reports-lindsay-doran-on-the-psychology-of-story-telling-edf125ef2f64

Look for lecture

Another transition

 Moving from when I saw the prompt about writing about your first 15 years and 15 minutes into the ritual I developed for safety being in the theater and then move into my 50 movies at the movies 50 years three movies a year

Genres

 Keep in mind

Elements as titles: gaffer, lighting, acting, mide en scene

Genres acti9n movies tell us

Introduction I want to include as many films in this

I also wa.t to include Many amazing poets

I want to include the 100 books I would recommend in my journey

I want to dive into wjat Jericho wished for me in my birthday card

About trees

 Naropa exp

Walking trees

The fountain

Tree of Life

Neoplatonism, fountain of god

Hanged man Tarot full knowledge but unable to do anything, just like Odin unable to do anything but with full knowledge

Larger concepts

 Pages with larger concepts

Work on

 Projectionist

Gage 4 theaters

Father figures

Parent figures

Develop rituals for healing

 Just like my documentary Poetics and erasers for the Vietnam War and also include film, or see a Conrad while standing in line for death writing about the factory work his relatives had to do in writing for their healing maybe I also need to look at the train in Topeka, and how dream is mixed with alcohol to that all of my grandfather's were alcoholics

I was raised by people who spent their lives working in factories where they were treated like bad children who needed to be disciplined for demanding Healthcare and a livable wage. P. 88

womens writing

 compile from Helene Cixous

Unreliable Truth by Murdock

Laura Mulvey

film making 

work on

 to think about working on the intersections, while nodding to the third

 

poetry and film

film and memoir

poetry and memoir

 

 

Napoleon Dynamite and Everything Everywhere All At Once

 I worked on the two films, as well as Truman Show. Thinking of the themes, I do worry I am moving away from the other general writing--describing the trifecta of film, poetry, and memoir

So I might come up with that plan? To write about the general as well as the specific?

 

I was thinking of pulling together literature that combines two, then extend to the third? For example, in Film Therapy,  Fatemi ends on a chapter about film and poetry. Then pull in how memoir functions in the same way?

 

Name each part, A function of the trifecta?

 

 

Time to revise, too

 Thinking of how this time might happen, I know about myself that my best work of creativity comes in the morning.

 So this miught mean that afternoons are for revision.

Part of my brain, even finding past writing to fuse with the current stuff, just doesn't want to touch assembling yet.

Also, I should reserve time for reading. And movie watching.

 

Wild nights

 https://girlsontopstees.com/en-us/blogs/read-me/wild-nights-the-journey-to-find-justice-for-emily-dickinson#:~:text=Devised%20by%20reading%20and%20analysing,and%20even%20before)%20she%20died.

To work on

 And just because a movie isn't transformative to you doesn't mean it's not a transformative film Gather that everything everywhere all at once stuff

Discuss right about how I couldn't even make it through the first part of dodgeball, make the comedy and the sarcasm

Also Ferris Bueller's Day Off

Going to the library to look up the books about magic or I'll just do it at home

Search key words

 I found a book written by Jennifer Love Hewitt which is a memoir and it's something about creating magic. Now that might be an interesting thing to do search through a library catalog with the keyword magic and identify which books might have to do with that

2004

 Just like a year can be used to measure an amazing event that has happened or even reflect how the personal in the public reflect each other, I'd like to look at the year 2004. Of course I'm also looking at 2025 right now because it just seems so amazing for both superhero and horror films

Film as art and narrative as Construction

 https://collider.com/you-need-to-be-genius-fully-understand-these-movies/

I never liked it when people phrase it like you have to understand a movie. I'd rather say I come away from a movie having an experience. And even playing with how we might think of the narrative because of certain things happening, the best way I know is to just say think of the movie as a dream. And all of a sudden people are more understanding about it.

Tony tost

 I do want to write my small thing about Americana and hope that that's the Regal mystery movie on Monday. This is the one topic I'd like to do is approach how different poets use poetry and maybe I need to write those small pieces by themselves and then figure out where they need to be put in the book? Definitely image based with CA and Selah. We have the approach from Sauued Momsen fatemi, that the last chapter talks about movies in poetry.

Archetypal

 I should definitely include the archetypal like from Maureen Murdock Smith making she has a whole chapter in it. P128

For womens writing

 Use only women's writing quotes

Memoir, around 

Like reality hunger

Another transition

 Crying at the movies

reliving childhoods

movies and dreams

 

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My writing leads to its own transitions because of what I discover through writiing

the "organic" way to write makes its own plans 

A note on the process AKA why Choose Your Own Adventure will work

 Yes of course I was thinking about this, how Ferris Bueller day off was such a big hit when it came out this summer I turned 16. It came out in June and I was given the free poster and free button to really lock in the excitement for the movie as I was one of the first to see it at the Gage 4 theater. Then more than a month later I would be working my first job, two days after I had turned 16. In other words I didn't learn any lessons about how life goes too fast.

So what's interesting is that I have a lot to write about this movie, but it also goes into a transition of the monsters Journey, that this discussion of how movies can symbolize both the self and Shadow, and their characters that we might not like but then would be best representative of ourselves the parts we don't want to see. That the monsters journey is developed so you come to healing and accepting the monster you've become, the monster and human combined. And I think of the movie Gremlins as a great example of that.

Course there's also when you're thinking of Horror because that was more of child horror, like one of the first horror movies in a while that was made for children too? Which is really weird it was the '80s, but then you can get into it came from the closet, how queer identities saw themselves in horror movies.

This removed Utopia Style

 Like writing using a book of poetry about movies or from one of the other books to borrow words when I get stuck

Possible transition

 Going from Ferris bueler and the duality of life, are you more like _ or Ferris

Into the Monster's Journey and my own films gremlins

Into the mythology of monsters

Work for this week

 Work on the crying chapter>>>finished with quotes 8/4

Finish Fast Food, >>work on quotes

but also consider how Ferris Bueller's Day Off might be its own thing >> watch film

Watch the movie as looking at Cameron as a survivor

Who does Ferris surround himself with? How did I fall in with charismatic people I called friends to only see them use me?

How does Ferris use Cameron throughout the film

Use the cinemaparenting book? He talks about ferris,  how we should tell our children which character they like and if they like Ferris more than they should like be more like them

Notes about

 Just assemble quotes, like notes about childhood at the movies, notes about memoir