Settling
Sometimes the mind doesn't even know what it's doing because the heart is craving to be with someone but the mind says who's going to love you? No one possibly would.
Honestly I lucked out with Carrie
But I do want to say those brief two years I grew a lot as single
Trauma based upbringings teach escalation, fight or flight
Or maybe even stress situations that I didn't even realize I was escalating things as I was just trying to ask students for their work and not GPT
So many tropes
La la land
Even friends I might have accidentally lost because I didn't teach in to keep in touch, or friends that stopped staying in touch because of whatever I've said or done, and even recently where I feel I've lost a friend whom I'm not going to meet for lunch again because of something I had said then quickly apologized. The reality is I need to remember boundaries. And I need to be very respectful of those boundaries by not trying to reach out and make things awkward.
Even as groups of people I've been through school with still might get together but I'm not included, I need to remember that that is okay that that is what just happened because of the circumstances in places and no one ever means for things to happen. That would separate such friendships.
I guess the best way I like to put things as I have been married before, is that no one gets married thinking they're going to get divorced.
Why I am great at gpt recognition and it look over texts to see the similarities
Speed reader, computer programmer analyst, a teacher of English and a reader of texts
Poetry
Comedians have a high-level pattern recognition, puns, play with words
https://www.ign.com/articles/snydercut-subreddit-issues-statement-after-james-gunn-dismisses-fan-calling-for-mass-superman-review-bomb-campaign
This really shows the toxic masculinity culture we live in. Hyper individualism and the call to spread lies to bomb something really gets in the way of an artist and Storyteller doing all they can to help out the culture. James Gunn deliberately made Superman this time to be that nuanced exploration of how not taking sides in what would be a political fight would work better. As Superman is alien, this concept is alien.
I have the feeling I've already blogged about this, about how buying concessions or giving someone concessions has this strange duality. That the word has different meanings. And to find out the root of it. Plus I realized trying to go to see how to train your dragon that we were not going to buy any concessions for the boys. I realize that that was a deep way of handling stress, my mom would often snack. She even created a candy stash for the boys at her old house. I had problems with that too that I would buy candy as a boy and hide it so no one would know. I would go out to the tree to eat it and then my sister reported on me. Of course the parents response that was I was hiding candy and I had to share. I was disciplined for this thing about secrets and lies that keep the secrets and lies going because it's disciplinary and not corrective. I still have a trouble with hiding I even hid soda pop when I was addicted to it. The addictions hiding secrets and things we want for ourselves are all part of the issue coming out of such families that are dysfunctional.
In fact USDA subsidies of junk food are why junk food is cheap and for many families the only way to buy food. Similar to going through McDonald's drive-thru I'm not going to blame anyone who has to go through that drive-thru because there's already so much at risk so much stress so much Limited funds. White Dollar General is so popular because Everything's a Dollar so forth so if you only have so much money injured craving and needing things you're going to go to Dollar General and spend all the money you have there.
King Corn the documentary showed we are made of corn. Going to the movies as a corn experience.
The film Nobody really plays up the masculinity tropes of how a man should protect his castle and those he loves. It creates these real world bullying situations. It shows that he needs to protect people by not taking action in which he's criticized for. Such a good film in these ways that it shows if you are aware or have the masculinity lens, that he's going to play things cool once he's even caught. He's all powerful he can take out anybody but yet he also keeps a cat on him
The day by day tedious tasks that even has an office in a factory and that he has to go through all of these everyday routines. As the whole week is highlighted as a repetition.
