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So I thought I dodged being sick as everyone else has been here. No such luck. Carrie said I will feel better tomorrow if I rest today. So the boys are in quarantine for Halloween and I'm stuck in bed. I feel pretty lousy, so I'm not sure what I'll get written but I'm going to try. But I'm guessing I'll just be mostly sleeping today.

Day 53

Barbara and I met today maybe for the last time at Blackbird as we agreed we need to get to start the real work at Studio 831. We talked about the third aspect of our triptych which will be the future. We talked about the prepared mind that what you need comes to you, as she talked about how she will draw the same tree and see something new and a different aspect in it that she hasn't seen before. As far as the third part, we thought about the words altering, treatment of water, a people, we thought about the need for activism and to speak through our art, I thought about even making this part prose poetry. Other things colon pipes pressure water, where is the problem? Pressure, to fix. Runoff one-off, we are experiencing the runoff of the crisis, hurricanes flooding. Water doesn't go where it needs to. Hydroplaning, or what I called water drifting. We are hydroplaning so we need to turn the cruise control off as we can't operate the brakes. The hydrant is broken. Cautionary tales without being preachy.

Day 52

I did a few rubbings today. I learned to take my time, not to do it in medias res.

Day 51

I wrote a few poems about going to the movies and movies that are out. I am still hoping to meet Barbara on Tuesday but I've been feeling sick. I really need to do those rubbings if I'm going to see her on Tuesday. So maybe going to Gage Park early then meeting her a blackbird to give her the results would be best. Tomorrow is a day of rest so I plan to go through my cut-ups of the plaques and figure out what would be the best rubbings to make.

Many of my poems about my boys are about when I'm leaving them, because as I right now and they could possibly have in the future is like life, that the work I do and changing students lives is like the work I do in their lives, that any money I make will go towards my boys security, and that these selected poems about them are to help them uncover me. I don't want them spending their lives wondering why I am who I am, I just want to tell them and have them reflect on if they had a wonderful childhood. So now is the time to make a wonderful childhood for them, and I know the house on Boswell is a place like that. Sometimes it really is where you live that creates a psychic positivity.

Day 50

I went to the Topeka Shawnee County Public Library today and checked out many books about water scarcity and climate change. I also printed off some of the plaque materials from Gage Park so I can begin thinking about what I will call Project 2 of the two Ponder's series. Finally, I'm going to do some writing tonight after my poetry reading with a net Billings at the library.

List of things my boys like

Legos, pokemon, Netflix series, constellations, mythology, fairy tales, dolphins, dinosaurs

Abacus, lady bugs, Boswell Park, Kansas City

Halloween,  Christmas

Day 49

I made a little breakthrough today and what I'd like to do for some of the children's poems. Just as I am looking at some of the scrying activities for looking at the future I think that nursery rhymes and fairy tales might be the way into looking at the Children's work. As fairy tales off and have repeating tropes and nursery rhymes have repeating tropes, there might be something as a kind of scrying and invocation for protection. It really is the protection of boys Hearts from the world of masculinity.

On another note I finished my packet for the petition for promotion to senior lecturer.

It was rainy today, so I'm hoping to take the boys out to the park and do my first rubbing.