In the midst of naviagting my late teens and twenties, I believed the healing of my childhood meant engaging with what I could do with my earned money: collecting.
I now say as a joke, a collector is really a hoarder who wants to come to terms with how collecting serves the collector.
When the term arrested development came a public term, maybe through the TV show?, it was a new use of language to focus through.
Suncoast Era, Gen X, and the Losses We Felt in the Seventies and Eighties
We only have so much time, so trying to push yourself into being creative is barrier making
It's an assignment, so it's already a resistance
Some students really aren't interested in poetry but they enrolled in the class anyway
Students are used to Turning something in and getting a grade for it. They aren't used to really writing something they would want to read or want to ride. Or that they would even have written by a deadline.
I'm asking them to share emotions with using words that they wouldn't normally share. That the art has to be there.
Art and sharing feelings are never encouraged in classroom settings. They are not often graded on. Again, the grades!
Students are more focused on what they need to do for homework then they are on the experience of being in a classroom where they can be themselves.
This one of my best writing practices is to have a pile of books beside me.
Even if I feel stuck, I can pick up a book and in no time at all I start writing again.
Engaging with the language itself changes my own way of thinking, that then words that are coming from somewhere come out in a way that's different than they would.
Of course the prompts are also wonderful.
https://open.substack.com/pub/mondaysarefree/p/exercise-001-the-list?utm_source=share&utm_medium=android&r=2dy8e9
Check the sources for: Here’s Sontag’s list of beliefs, list of likes and dislikes, and list of rules for parenting.
Essayism by Brian Dillon
My journey into mythology as a mythology that I left home many times to get home
I first taught myself about mythology through all the books I could find at the library. Then I took mythology in high school which meant memorizing the gods names in matching them up. What I mean is Greek mythology. Then there was a dash of Egyptian mythology and another dash of Norse mythology.
Then it came to my teaching of Mythology which I looked through the books about inclusiveness, the students worry about studying another culture, and realizing that the stories that represent realities mean that we have modern mythology.
That the stories themselves mean nothing if we can't apply them to ourselves and of the world. I also don't mean negative appropriation, but looking at systems of tricksters and what makes a trickster, alongside what is a modern trickster look like, and specifically how can I be a positive Trickster?
I will beed to write about comic books, having chicken pox and getting Richie Rich and Casper, books I could read, then going to Kwik Shop, then movie comic books, XMen, Spidey, then comic book stores,
alongside drive in movies, then movies at Gage 4 and other places, the nuances each theater held, looking through Friday's paper for movies, magazines at store, comics, trading cards and book adaptations, then toys, then coollectables, Suncoast, collector widescreen VHS tapes, DVDs
alongside library books, albums with soundtracks, buyng such soundtracks at the record store, drving my bike to all of the places around, mythology books
experts in Suncoast, Hot Topic being the closest version now
https://www.amazon.com/dp/1910559962?ref=cm_sw_r_ffobk_cp_ud_dp_K5PAMMNX5GBG5FQKFBQF&ref_=cm_sw_r_ffobk_cp_ud_dp_K5PAMMNX5GBG5FQKFBQF&social_share=cm_sw_r_ffobk_cp_ud_dp_K5PAMMNX5GBG5FQKFBQF&skipTwisterOG=1&bestFormat=true&dplnkId=144356ae-c209-445c-a6e0-eec8b5cea347
Maureen Murdock will join us to discuss her book Mythmaking: Self-Discovery and the Timeless Art of Memoir. We believe mythic memoir is vital for practicing enchantment and for bearing witness to our lives.
Visit Jason's friend Dustin, who has a Superman collection
Reach out to the movie theaters about being their Poet Laureate for a day
Look into film related places
Interview Austin Snell
As I reflect on my finished writng, I know I should incliude my own struggles--my own stories
That if my upbrining was a film, the illusions I lived within
Film was that get-away to magic
include my own words and reflections
did you see the length of that paragragh about Star Wars?
try other development ideas like that one
Intuition is seeing the solution
https://youtu.be/JYFxTO6nDE0?si=quGJmBjLDTiJXIqQ
Go in as of you are in a movie
How can I sneak in some David Lynch into my writing? How can this be a part of what changed my way of looking at films?
It was kind of like this boy's life but the stepdad is the dad and the mother has to get out of there like in fried green tomatoes as the dad comes in to hit her.
And it was like Goodwill Hunting but for 11 years actually in college.
Robin Williams telling me it's not your fault it's not your fault
How this article describes the beginning of the 21st century in that the confessionalism of the memoir launched into the 21st century. It's the same thing from the confessional poem, that we seek a post-confessional poem. That the representation needs to lead to Healing include others or create some fluid I
https://www.independent.co.uk/arts-entertainment/books/features/nonfiction-book-bestsellers-subjects-b2676650.html
Rachel Zucker wrote a lot about this about how the I needs to be included
https://www.foundryjournal.com/zucker.html
How can we write past the confessional but what I mean is that through my healing I don't really find it necessary to name names. I don't need to say anything about the tragedy or abuse I went through. You just need to know that I survived and then I can show some of those joys and loves in play and wonder.
It's the same with how my poetry really launched off, that I attached joy and play to the writing.
And experimental work is the best punk way to work. We have to adapt a punk nature against masculinity. Which is why I was talking about against white male poetry classrooms. White male teaching.
I know it's the irony of me being a white guy but that's why I know even more from my own experiences of having a life where I could reject men and didn't want anything to do with them. That I became my own heroine Journey.
Hero versus heroine Journey and maybe I'm also on the monster Journey
So the Memoir can be that representation while speaking out against oppressive forces.
That's what my research will eventually be too is to look at the Memoirs coming out of Hollywood and comparing them. I'm stuck with equiterre feminine Helen Gireaux
Something I will have to go back and remember how to spell.
https://www.psychologytoday.com/intl/blog/of-minds-and-men/202501/three-love-lessons-from-a-century-of-romantic-comedies
Interesting as I think about these things, especially how I wait to watch Eternal Sunshine when it's Valentine's Day.
What do these things tell us?
Mythmaking
Me and you and everyone we know as an ultimate homage to the vulnerability we all have, the unexpected, the things we're searching for and the things that we realize we don't need. And that's what I need to do with thinking of the sabbatical, this writing, is stop thinking that I need to do something and just to be truthful and honest. Then go back and write to make it good. Just that like the line in Lee, worry about telling the truth first.
I'm looking at his films on Criterion Channel as I have it this month and I'm thinking about how he made the movies he wanted to make. He was called all kinds of names, but he still made those movies the way he wanted and now he's invited to give commencement speeches at colleges. Well I want to write the book I want to write. Maybe I need to take that punk attitude. I'm looking at all these books and they will make good guidelines, but I also want to be true to myself and write the book I would want to read. What are the things I would want to read about the things I want to talk about. I want to put them in my own way in my own words. And I know I have the style of saying these words that I mean to be colloquialisms but they turn out wrong but I like that. It's like I said many I'm weighted down by money but I mean money is so scarce that it weighs heavily on my mind. Why can't I just say that I'm weighted down by money. Okay when I think of money I get weighted down.
I want to talk about that movie everything everywhere all at once and how I'm like women that I totally understand how he uses kindness as an way to get around the world. I've never been one to try to be rude. It's just my midwest Kansas upbringing and if that can't be a strength what can be? I mean I was thinking about the cynicism that when you're a teenager it's so cool, but then you continue being a cynic and you're grown up and you think what the heck am I thinking about? Why am I feeling this way about things? This can't be healthy!
So I'm going to be Punk and I'm going to go to the movie theater no one wants to go to in Topeka and I'm going to set up my poetry shop there.
I mean it's so corporate that now it's anti-corporate. It's a hole in the wall that Regal just keeps open because they're not going to lose any money from keeping it open but it's so Punk they won't change it in any way. And that reminds me I need to go look in that hidden movie theater and see what happened. They only have seven screens open and I want to see what they're doing about the 8th. I saw those chairs there I wonder if they're remodeling.
I am wishing to merge work with joy--just as I have in the past--so I will be up for suggestions.
One thing I want to do is reach out to movie theaters to ask if I may be their Poet Laureate for the weekend. It seems the best time to work on my own stuff, draw creativity, and offer five free poetry tickets for anyone who wishes for one.
Maybe even take my printer with me?
When Carrie and I met >> mental rom coms
Work >> Fast Food National, The Matrix Office Space
Golden Globe speeches 2025, The Brutalist with director autonomy / capitalism, disfigurement ableism, women's voices "I am who I am, not what you want me to be"
